"I remember the way I lost myself in loving you and you did nothing but gain through it all. I remember how I was so afraid to walk away and that when I did it couldn't have felt better. I remember being scared that I would never be OK. I remember sleepless night and puffy eyes. And all of those memories drive me to hate you. I hate recognizing that I wasn't me then. I was truer to you than I ever was to myself."
"I avoid you. I know if I talk to you or try to see you just to catch up I will drag you back in. I did it to you once before- you broke up with your girlfriend for me, and I won't do it again. It's not fair for you, but I miss our friendship. I find comfort in knowing you are out there and you have a serious relationship right now, but the selfish part of me wants to reach out to you. I don't think we could handle it and I would never do that to you, but I want to- I never told you."
"I'm scared that as time goes by I'm going to forget. I'm going to forget how your head always felt in my hands. I'm going to forget the features of your face that I would trace with my fingers as you closed your eyes. I'm worried I won't be able to remember the look in your eyes that could melt my heart, or the way you would wrap your arms around me so tightly I felt like the last puzzle piece fitting into it's perfect spot. I'm afraid you have forgotten me."
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